But today, I was finally getting some relief from some constipation, but not quite enough relief, so I got stuck, in the bathroom. With no reading material. I went first to the back panel of the air freshener can. Then, I resorted to the hand soap label. Left with no other 'relaxing' activities, I texted my sister and told her about my dilemma. Giggling from that exchange got me through this traumatic event. But, seriously, constipation stinks. And I would like my own private bathroom at all times.
The spotting returned yesterday. It was there in the morning before I left for work. And I didn't see any more evidence for the rest of the day. Today, it has been hardly noticeable at all. The toilet paper at work is so crappy it looks grey all the time! But, I for sure saw some when I got home tonight. I wish, oh how I wish, it would just go away. I am not panicking. I have scheduled my next sonogram for NEXT Thursday. I think I could have 'accidentally' scheduled it for tomorrow and claimed ignorance, but I did not. I am strong. If the doctor says brown is old and nothing to worry about, then I'm going to go with that. But its hard. Very, very hard.
I have two long days coming up tomorrow and Friday, and I'm a bit anxious about what all will happen. I am in this leadership program through the local chamber of commerce. And we have like 10 meetings in the next 3 months. Tomorrow, our first meeting, we meet from 12pm to 7:30pm. And Friday 8am to 5pm. I have no idea what we'll be doing, and I'm paranoid I'll be required to stand in some group activities and that I'll be dizzy or nauseas. I'm hoping we get to start with some introductions activity and I can tell everyone about the pregnancy, and then I won't have people thinking I'm a lazy fat cow because I sit and eat snacks all day. I'll have a medical excuse.
Did I mention I'm worried about the spotting? But, I'm going to try to remember that the first time I saw spotting was the night before the sonogram last Thursday when we saw the twins' heartbeats and everything was okay then, so hopefully everything is okay now.