Friday, October 17, 2008


I am still feeling pregnant. I have been scratching my belly today, and I imagine I feel them move when I do it. And yet, I worry that I only feel one of them move. Or that what I'm really feeling is gas. Don't get me wrong. I'm not completely bipolar. I am still giddy and excited and positive about things right now. But who doesn't have a nagging voice in the back of her head?
My self-proclaimed pregnancy partner found out yesterday that one of her twins had died. And I am so sad for her. For all the support and validation from this community, I also have opened myself up to a lot more emotion than I ever thought I could feel for someone I've never met. I thought this post was particularly well written and it just seems like what I would be feeling if it were me. I don't know how I would feel, I cannot imagine this loss, but her words just feel so true.
As for the T.G.I.F. well can I just say Whew! I finally made it through this week! As I mentioned yesterday, my work is really just a whirlwind right now. I myself prefer a day or so in meetings or out of the office each week, or every other week coupled with time to chit chat with my friends at work, perhaps a few personal emails here and there, and the luxury of all luxuries - time to plan. But starting back on September 25 and finishing up on December 15, I have a meeting, training event, or other event every single day -and the majority of them are at least 10-3. Which leaves very little time to prepare for the next meeting or to return phone calls. Every night this week I've saved email for home and even returned some calls via email because I couldn't get them returned during business hours.
I will be working from home tomorrow, which is good, because I have a lot to catch up on and I'm sure mentally I'll be a lot stronger next week because I will just feel so much more prepared. Tuesday, someone is taking over my class so I can go to the OB at 10; and a sono appt at 12:45 (for the goiter). So, working tomorrow will make that a totally guilt free work day. Can't say I didn't put in the time.
Other than the work, I really have no plans this weekend. Even though we celebrated last weekend, our anniversary is on Sunday. I need to get DH a card. I already got him a small gift. I thought we might go get a pedicure, now that I'm out of the 1st trimester, all should be well. And I need one!

Oh, and I've started stressing about Christmas, just a little. I really haven't got much shopping done, and am not finding inspiration in our new 'pre-twin-parent' budget range. So, when I get sick of work, will probably surf the internet for that.
(13w, 1 d)


JamieD said...

Someone asked me about Christmas shopping the other day and I about fell over. I am not even close to being there yet.

I hope your appointment goes well! This is the first you've mentioned the goiter in a while - I guess it hasn't been bothering you?

Enjoy your work day at home! I hope it is a unstressful, productive day!

Blue said...

Thank you, thank you, thank you. Such sweet words and wonderful support, I so appreciate it. We are getting through it...slowly.

Glad to hear you are doing well; work sounds crazy - make sure you look after yourself. Lots of good wishes for tomorrow's appts, I will be thinking of you.