Ok, so episode 5 of Spot Fest 2008 has begun. Still brown. Still scary. Getting annoying.
I am so freaking tired of the spotting. Seriously? Both my RE and my OB told me to rest when it happened, so that must mean its serious enough to pay attention to, even if we have seen heartbeats after each of the previous 4 episodes.
I'm thinking I caused this. I think I overdid it on Friday. (OB said it could be caused by standing too much).
Friday, I worked all day, and I was feeling good, not nauseas for the first time in months, and so I was normal. I shopped for maternity clothes over the lunch hour, I worked until after 5, came home and got ready for our big anniversary date, and then, the walking back and forth into the Coliseum for Michael Buble, that's a lot more walking that I normally could stomach. Thankfully, that concert in particular did not require a lot of standing (old people can't stand that long, either). But still, I'm pretty sure that did it. How am I ever going to spend the next 6 months in bed all the time? I'm so disappointed that my body isn't more hearty, that I can't do normal things right now.
I had finished my maternity shopping yesterday by the time I noticed the spotting, so pretty much rested the rest of the day. I did go to my massage. And I did walk around the bookstore searching for something to read - in anticipation of not leaving the house today. I have plenty of work to keep me occupied here in the bed with my laptop, but STILL. I wanted to start enjoying the pregnancy and let go of my constant fear. And the tiniest tint of brown on the tp can send me into a tailspin. Grrrr.
So, to force myself to focus on something happy, here are some pictures of some of the clothes I bought yesterday. They're still a little big, but I'm in month 4 here (with twins!), so I'm expecting to pop out pretty soon. Oh, and they're much cuter in person. No, really, they are.