I was committed to a month of breastfeeding, but its done. After pumping several times on Wednesday - more than I had done since we left the hospital - I got a total of 2 ounces. And it was stressing me out, trying to pump every time the boys were resting. And then yesterday, well, I never got around to pumping. So, last night, I decided to bite the bullet. I put the pump back in the box. I bagged up all the tubes and other containers. I put them all away so they couldn't look at me anymore. And I sighed to myself ... maybe next time, if we only have one.
I'm disappointed, but I knew it could come to this. Lots of people never even try. I did. And I did everything I could. And as my grandmother reassured me, they got the best, the beginning. So, breastfeeding is now a dead topic. Let's move on.
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The boys and I had our first solo outing yesterday, to Target. One car seat in the cart, the other on the basket and we were ready to roll. They behaved beautifully. I bought three things. Pads. Coffee. Thank You's.
We had our second outing this morning, to the pediatrician's office, in the rain. The boys have now each gained over a pound. So, we were approved to go off the 3-hour feeding schedule. Which rocks. Except that so far today, they've fed on demand every 2 hours. I really only care about the nightime. Anyway, I was delighted that Jack is now well over 8 pounds, and Will is almost there.
The best part of the pediatrician's office was the nurse who did our weight check gave us about a week's worth of formula samples, several coupons, and enrollment in a multiples' club which will send us two 6-pack cases of formula as well. She also said to ask for samples every time we're in the office. So, we netted like $150 from today's trip.
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I have made an appointment with my thyroid surgeon, to get that surgery scheduled. He will check to see how much my tumor has grown on May 11th. I was able to put it out of my mind while I was pregnant and couldn't do anything about it, but I feel fully recovered from the c section and I'm ready to get this taken care of so I don't have this black cloud following 5 feet behind me at all times.
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DH and I have a photoshoot planned for tomorrow afternoon. Our friend is a photographer and she will be coming to our home. I can't wait to see the pictures, to capture their precious little selves before they get any bigger. And then....I can finally send out announcements!
2 comments:
*hugs* on the BFing. I tried too, and it is so hard to make the decision that you just can't do it. You feel like a failure, but you're NOT. You have a lot on your plate right now, and if it was more than you could handle, it's okay.
What great news! Congrats on the weight gain and the solo outing.
I can't wait to see pics . . .
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